Mother's Day 2008Me, Bubbe Eve, My mom
So to say the last few weeks have been a rollercoaster would be quite the understatement. In all honesty, not so much even a rollercoaster, really just a down fall ..... On Thursday, December 4th, I lost one of the most absolutely special people in my life. My Bubbe Eve. Yes, it still hurts to even talk about it. I couldn't even fathom discussing or writing about it, or hardly even talking about it for quite some time. Before the funeral, I thought the pain and sadness would never ever ever lessen, and simply could not make myself stop crying, and would have outbursts at the most random times. Why would this happen to such an amazing lady. Then I got to thinking, WOW what a full and wonderful life she led. If only I could one day lead such a full, wonderful, loving, meaningful, and honored life. The call that she had passed away DID come as quite a shock, which of course didn't make it much better. I knew she wasn't doing well, but i don't think any of us thought we would get the call that soon! Without sharing too much personal and special information that was shared between myself and other family members including my parents, brother, aunts, cousins, etc we got to talking about Bubbe Eve and reminiscing about different things she said, she did, she liked, etc. Many laughs came up. Like belly aching laughs, what a WONDERFUL lady she was. How lucky I am to have lived 25 years with such an AMAZING Bubbie. Quite honestly, there are no words that adequately encompass her. She was a Mother, a Wife, a Grandmother, a Sister, and did them all better than anyone else ever has. How can one person have so much love and compassion and care for everyone she met. My Rabbi from Mobile who knew Bubbe Eve personally came up to Birminghamd to do the funeral. I can not imagine it possibly being as peaceful, special, touching and fulfilling of a funeral service had he not been there to do it. The things he said about Bubbe Eve were all so very true -- the main theme, LOVE. Seriously, I hope I am one day able to become even half the Mother, grandmother, and wife that Bubbe Eve was to all of us and Papa Iz. What a giver. She was always giving. Whether it was 5 dollar bills to each of her grandkids every time she saw them, or backscratches, or all her yummy cooking, she was always a giver and never a taker. She would take hugs and love back, but that's about it. Seriously, no words can truly describe how amazing of a woman she was though. While words can not necssarily encompass it, actions can at least begin to. The outpour of love and caring that came from those that attended her funeral service was amazing. It was obvious just how many peoples' lives had been touched by our Bubbe Eve. What amazing friends my parents have that came from afar for the funeral. Many family friends from Mobile made the drive up on the freezing cold day to be with us at the funeral service, and one of my mom's best friends from growing up even hopped on a plane with her husband and came in for the service. WOW, what an out pour of love. All of my dad's family in Birmingham was also there for us in so many amazing ways! I was touched to have so many people who I know had been touched by Bubbe Eve's love and were kind enough to be there for our family on the very tough day. I already miss her dearly, it's still so hard to believe that she is not with us anymore. Without her here with us, the best we can do, is live our lives the way she would or she would want us to. Chin up, smile on your face, spreading love to all the special people in your life. So onward I go, with a smile on my face, my heart growing and bursting with love and ready to spread the caring and loveliness that Bubbe Eve would have spread. I am going to do my best to live my life to make her very proud. Without getting into religious beliefs, etc, I believe we can all take beliefs and come up with your own belief system of what you want to believe and actually do believe, etc. I believe Bubbe Eve is now an angel looking over us all, and I will strive to live my life fully and living in love and spreading love to those around me and those that mean the most to me, just as Bubbe Eve did. I hope to make her proud, and hopefully spread all that she instilled in all of us.
(The picture at the beginning is the most recent picture I have with Bubbe Eve from this past Mother's day when my mom and I went up to visit her.)
As she herself said every single time we left her from visiting......... Bubbe Eve, it's not goodbye, it's just so long.... loving you and missing you so very very much!
So to say the last few weeks have been a rollercoaster would be quite the understatement. In all honesty, not so much even a rollercoaster, really just a down fall ..... On Thursday, December 4th, I lost one of the most absolutely special people in my life. My Bubbe Eve. Yes, it still hurts to even talk about it. I couldn't even fathom discussing or writing about it, or hardly even talking about it for quite some time. Before the funeral, I thought the pain and sadness would never ever ever lessen, and simply could not make myself stop crying, and would have outbursts at the most random times. Why would this happen to such an amazing lady. Then I got to thinking, WOW what a full and wonderful life she led. If only I could one day lead such a full, wonderful, loving, meaningful, and honored life. The call that she had passed away DID come as quite a shock, which of course didn't make it much better. I knew she wasn't doing well, but i don't think any of us thought we would get the call that soon! Without sharing too much personal and special information that was shared between myself and other family members including my parents, brother, aunts, cousins, etc we got to talking about Bubbe Eve and reminiscing about different things she said, she did, she liked, etc. Many laughs came up. Like belly aching laughs, what a WONDERFUL lady she was. How lucky I am to have lived 25 years with such an AMAZING Bubbie. Quite honestly, there are no words that adequately encompass her. She was a Mother, a Wife, a Grandmother, a Sister, and did them all better than anyone else ever has. How can one person have so much love and compassion and care for everyone she met. My Rabbi from Mobile who knew Bubbe Eve personally came up to Birminghamd to do the funeral. I can not imagine it possibly being as peaceful, special, touching and fulfilling of a funeral service had he not been there to do it. The things he said about Bubbe Eve were all so very true -- the main theme, LOVE. Seriously, I hope I am one day able to become even half the Mother, grandmother, and wife that Bubbe Eve was to all of us and Papa Iz. What a giver. She was always giving. Whether it was 5 dollar bills to each of her grandkids every time she saw them, or backscratches, or all her yummy cooking, she was always a giver and never a taker. She would take hugs and love back, but that's about it. Seriously, no words can truly describe how amazing of a woman she was though. While words can not necssarily encompass it, actions can at least begin to. The outpour of love and caring that came from those that attended her funeral service was amazing. It was obvious just how many peoples' lives had been touched by our Bubbe Eve. What amazing friends my parents have that came from afar for the funeral. Many family friends from Mobile made the drive up on the freezing cold day to be with us at the funeral service, and one of my mom's best friends from growing up even hopped on a plane with her husband and came in for the service. WOW, what an out pour of love. All of my dad's family in Birmingham was also there for us in so many amazing ways! I was touched to have so many people who I know had been touched by Bubbe Eve's love and were kind enough to be there for our family on the very tough day. I already miss her dearly, it's still so hard to believe that she is not with us anymore. Without her here with us, the best we can do, is live our lives the way she would or she would want us to. Chin up, smile on your face, spreading love to all the special people in your life. So onward I go, with a smile on my face, my heart growing and bursting with love and ready to spread the caring and loveliness that Bubbe Eve would have spread. I am going to do my best to live my life to make her very proud. Without getting into religious beliefs, etc, I believe we can all take beliefs and come up with your own belief system of what you want to believe and actually do believe, etc. I believe Bubbe Eve is now an angel looking over us all, and I will strive to live my life fully and living in love and spreading love to those around me and those that mean the most to me, just as Bubbe Eve did. I hope to make her proud, and hopefully spread all that she instilled in all of us.
(The picture at the beginning is the most recent picture I have with Bubbe Eve from this past Mother's day when my mom and I went up to visit her.)
As she herself said every single time we left her from visiting......... Bubbe Eve, it's not goodbye, it's just so long.... loving you and missing you so very very much!
